Cabin Musings

I wrote on Tuesday about the more philosophical aspects of my solo retreat.

The cabin was also an adventure in itself.

Made of wood with no insulation and a fair few gaps so you could feel the breeze during the wind storms. And hear every creak (great for an overactive imagination at night when alone in the middle of nowhere!)

Food was left for me in a bag under a tree once a week - simple fare of grains, veg and rice.

I had no electricity bar a car battery linked to a small LED light above the cooker.

My toilet was a hole in the ground.

There was no running water, but a hose on the other side of the field to have a flannel shower.

And I absolutely loved it!

One of my biggest take away was to realise I AM a good lover to myself.

It was beautiful to see how I tended to my emotional and physical needs. How I compassionately found the line between discipline and flexibility, between taking accountability and forgiving myself.

When the darkness came, I welcomed it closer, never to punish myself, but to know myself. And this embracing of it all meant each moment was truly honoured as perfect in its own right, even when coloured by suffering.

It was sweet relief to know these years of ‘work’ have led to tangible shifts.

This seemingly self-centered, me-focused realisation actually allowed me to have more space from my self-storying. In knowing I am held and loved, there is less need.

Moving away from internalised capitalism and the cult of the individual with the need to achieve, produce and be special.

Moving towards towards the many in the whole, the one in the all and the desire to connect, contribute and humbly but courageously serve community. Not as a thought exercise but as an embodied truth. I matter equally to, not more or less than, everything else. The ego falls away.

I am curious to see how the revelations touched on in this post (and on Tuesday) are able to integrate into the realities of my daily life!

I am certainly enjoying daily half an hour meditations being a new commitment, and the underlying sense of playful ease that is still gently humming in the background.

I would love to share more together. Join me in circle on retreat if you feel called!

Elemental Being has 3 spaces left and runs 3rd May - 6th May

https://sphinxyoga.co.uk/elemental-being-retreat-2024

Elemental Woman has 5 spaces left and runs 27th July - 3rd August

https://sphinxyoga.co.uk/elemental-woman-retreat-2024

Megan

(There is no filter of this pic I took from the cabin veranda - it really was a dreamscape!)